a change..I hope

Today while I felt the tears coming again..yes I am on my meds again so that should help..I got the distinct impression that I should pray. Now for those who personally know me..you know that praying is not my automatic go-to choice when life gets upside down..suffice to say that living in Utah I was a convert of the prominent religion, then I unconverted (!?)to the dismay of friends and neighbors, and have been a pariah ever since..I chafe under the idea that any religion forces you to conform..so rather than get too deep into that dark side of my night..Praying is not my usual activity.
I also hate to ask for anything because if indeed there is a higher power hanging out and listening..surely he would give more apt attention to those in great need, not those like me who mess up their finances all by themselves, and get sad because life isn't all sweetness and light ( yes I know the story of the sparrow)..so I talked aloud with the idea and said "what would I ask for if I pray? Money,thinness,less knee pain,a job, someone to buy my art?" Then of course the answer practically shouted in my ear.."GIVE THANKS!"....
And you know what? That made so much sense..I began to cry..
I know, I know..I have sure been crying a lot these days...
So I am not joining a group, or getting to a nunnery, I am not less of a liberal,Democrat,weird artist..I just want to give thanks for all I have had, all I have and whatever the future brings.
So my other thought I just had was..live in the moment and be thankful for whatever that moment is holding. Old concept, nothing new here, but a timely reminder.
So if you ask what religion I prescribe to..I might tell you ..The Church of the Hairy Dog..or..the church of turps and brushes..or maybe something animist, or whatever I feel that day..my apologies to the church goers here..because I appreciate you and your prayers!
I just chafe at the order! But I think I need a new name for my "live in the moment thankfulness".
So right now I am thankful for all of you dear bloggers..a great community..

Today

some days there are too many feelings of loss.
I still cry over my sweet Frankie pug who died so suddenly a few weeks ago. I think his death also conjures up the many feelings of loss over the last few years..everything from my Dad dying to graduating from the warm safe haven of the University, to my artist friend having to move away from across the hall from my studio, to the news my oldest son plans to move to California in the spring.
Not to take away from the loss of Sweet Frankie..he had taken my heart the day we rescued him from the Pug rescue.
Maybe the cloudy day and the cold doesn't help..or the fact that our very old sick cat went out a few weeks ago and never returned.
Sometimes life is just one loss after another...still we go on because we must.
So bear with me as I shed tears for my Frankie Pug, my Dad, and all the many who have passed this way and touched my life. Didn't want to be sad today but here it is.

Merry Christmas Everyone

Just wanted to say Merry Christmas, Happy New Year and Happy Holiday season to all of my Blogger friends. Your kind words and comments have been appreciated.
I do hope all is well for all of you. I am posting random photos today...hope to have some new art photos after the 25th.

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Dec.22,2011

more photos from Prague

Dec.21,2011 Prague

I visited Prague in 2008 and I long to return..it was so vibrant and lovely..here are some photos of wonderful Prague...enjoy

more tomorrow
ahh the sun just came out..the first time in several days!!!